Its a cycle of negativity. I keep reading things about how we cant love and that people should stay well clear of us, thankyou for writing this, my ex split with me, a week ago nd ive signed over my house coz she has nowhere to go, she jus thinks im trying to get back with her and has been told to cut all ties coz I will make her life hell, just feel so alone. We are highly emotionally sensitive and have extreme difficulty regulating/modulating our emotions. I have passed it on to my family and friends who support me. I wish I knew if there was some real possibility to salvage our relationship or even that we will talk again. Sometimes I hate him. Perhaps he still loves me and he still wants to try (I think he's been having a breakdown anyway, due to his father being very ill and the chance he'll be homeless when his dad dies). My wife got me a book back in 2004 called Walking On Egg Shells that has helped me so very much. This is an extreemly complicated disorder. The sort of help I needed. We may take on the attributes of those around us, never really knowing who WE are. A lover, a friend, a parent or sibling, and a coworker all have the privilege of having a frame of reference to place the borderline in. The letter F. An envelope. Needless to say, it hasn't been easy for either of us. And I know it's because I still have so much to learn. Self-harm, threatening or attempting suicide. You sound like the type of person who deserves as much love and acceptance as you give out x x x Reply freewillg Additional comment actions Thank you for sharing it and passing it along! I truly hope you have connected with resources to support you and have had a chance to learn more about DBT! Between my parents, family, and middle school, I have enough scarring that just won't heal up right. I am sorry that my borderline personality disorder (BPD) got in the way of our family and us. Erica shares her story of being diagnosed at 18 and opening up about living with BPD. It was a touch and go for 3 days. ive been through the same, she knows she has it but cant have anyone know, she cant have people think shes not perfect and happy. Borderlines do not know how to cope with intimacy - it leaves them feeling engulfed. It's common to experience other mental health problems and experiences alongside BPD, which could include: Anxiety and panic attacks Depression Eating problems Dissociative disorders Psychosis or hearing voices Bipolar disorder Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or complex PTSD Sleep problems Even in this letter, she puts me on a pedestal and subsequently knocks me off it. A Brief Look at My Life with Borderline Personality Disorder. Please give yourself time and hold on in hope. Don't write her off. 7. She is educated and successful, and to all the other people in her life, except for close family, she seems confident and put together. They tried me on several meds and hospitalized me when I started burning myself (unknown why) never did that before.but I remember being so angry and did not know why or when it would end. Wow does this roller coaster ever end??? However, when they are presented in a manner as if the struggle somehow evaporates at the end is not logical, because life is never so linear. Thank you. Borderline personality disorder in the workplace. You deserve to understand more about this condition and what we wish we could say but may not be ready. We all receive different care and information from professionals and those around us, information has never been so easily accessible. I thought we would be okay, but then something I did angered her. I truly believe that I will never get better, because I am surrounded by negative people with negative feelings toward me that I then reciprocate toward them. I've spent time in mental health institutions, in therapy, I have made attempts on my own life and I'm 25 years old - I feel I have been through things that most people don't go through until they are much later on in life. There were some days I was too depressed to go to school or to study, and there were many times I thought "how can I help others if I'm such a mess?" My girlfriend has BPD, and I've been at my wits' end, not knowing how to deal with it. We may jump from one friend to another, going from loving and idolizing them to despising them deleting them from our cell phones and unfriending them on Facebook. My family "tolerates" me. There is a lot of misconception out there about BPD. It sounds like your Mom cares to find out what's happening for you. Another thing you may have noticed is that spaced out look on our faces. I am sorry you didn't have a choice. I am scared, and I am alone. Thank you for being who you are. I have emotionally detached myself quite well this time I think. Love, Andrea, You are so welcome, Heather. He seems to be in complete denial of my diagnosis. It's not a rash or a broken bone. He will say that he knows that I love him but he isn't sure if he loves me and that he might be the one who'll give up. Ive read that DBT could be the answer to her unpredictable behaviour and fears, the problem is that we were stuck in a step before. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a mental health condition defined by the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (the bedrock clinical manual of the mental health field). I truly love her, but this is getting old real fast. I am almost 50 and hate myself for having any of this. Forgot those important facts. Thank you so much for your comment. It can easily end up feeling hopeless and you feel helpless. Share your story, message,poem, quote, photo or video of hope, struggle or recovery. Thank you. I think you are the first Norwegian to tell me about her BPD blog. I am so sorry that you were treated badly becuase of your diagnosis. We can learn how to stop sabotaging our lives and circumstancesand we can learn to behave in ways that are less hurtful and frightening to you. That is wonderful. Whenever that happens it takes her many days to recover, during which periods she will vacillate between seeming to be okay, and seething, and saying things like "I don't trust you. I can't believe they still employ me (which reminds me I'm am Thee master of self-sabatoge)Every day I am paranoid, anxious, overwhelmed. I have a wife and a Daughter who both have BPD wanting to die and both are in Psych Wards. You might feel like you're being held hostage . NEA.BPDAust - Family connections. One of the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder is an intense fear of being abandoned, and we therefore (often unconsciously) sometimes behave in extreme, frantic ways to avoid this from happening. He said many times that he wanted to show me love and treat me right but he thinks that his selfishness and pride are preventing him to do so. This is an open letter to anyone willing and/or needing to listen. Hay Debbie, I can relate to so much of this. This open letter does an amazing job of outlining some of the hallmark symptoms of BPD. However, it's my belief that the letter does little to help the children of borderlines. I had alter egos and they were the fun ones but I was not me anymore. ~ Dave M. Also, during those long recovery periods, she will fixate on a distorted, misremembered and misquoted version of something I'd said during the fight, always distorted to be much harsher than what I actually said, and sometimes completely "fabricated" with no basis in anything I said. Tonight tho as she is in the psych ward I feel as tho my world is crashing down around me. Its like every step I had ever taken to better myself since my diagnosis, just never happened. It's like you're a baby learning everything all over again. BPD expert and author, Randi Kreger, likens it to "having 'aural dyslexia,' in which they hear words and sentences backwards, inside out, sideways, and devoid of context.". So when a parent exhibits BPD symptoms, and the child becomes the target of these behaviors, it impacts who they are and who they will become. As a therapist I was aware of not breaking confidentiality, yet wanting to show potential and new clients that change is possible. I've been doing gratefulness journals since 2000. I love her but ive been told coz of bpd I have an inability to love, is that true, that I just dilude myself that she was the one? They both feed off each other. SANE Helpline. Arlington, VA 22203, NAMI Required Disclosures For Written Solicitations. Hope you are well! However the couple of times I suggested this we just fight and nothing came from it. I thank higher powers for not leaving life. Very occasionally, though (It just happened three nights ago for the 4th time in our 15-month relationship), I'll lose my own head and say some terse and unfair things. I asked myself, how can someone with four beautiful children and a stunning wife feel this way? I was so considerate and walked over again and again. I pray every night for God to help meI would love some direction and support Thank You. She cant acknowledge there is a problem, much less attend therapy or consider consulting a therapist. And guess what? It's all chaos. And now with this kind, loving man by my side I feel comfortableand so he gets the wrath of this chaotic mind. Required fields are marked *. You juggled everything with such grace, intelligence and humility even as your husband found it harder to keep being the man you knew. For more information, visit our Terms of Service & Privacy Policy page. My father had the ability, life experience, and the perspective needed to know this blame was unfounded. But I want him back. It will take time and a lot of effort. Any therapist helping a child of a borderline to recover will recommend that they protect themselves from the abuse and their abuser. There is a FUTURE, just DONT GIVE UP, be STRONG, get HELP. I would never fall inlove and start a family. The intensity with which you felt those emotions is probably equivalent to what a person with BPD feels on a regular basis. I am so glad that this letter can serve as a tool for sharing your journey with family and friends, and that you are able to find some help through my blog. Should I also even bother being a counselor if I am like this? Many times I wanted to give up but he is crying out loud inside that I cannot afford to leave him like that. This is an example of how manipulative people with BPD can be. I am actually building up an identity, something that is ME. Proud of you for going back to work. But you say it is possible to recover to heal have hope and a normal life. Now I don't know what I am. Leaving university during the recession, where there were no jobs in my chosen field, was a pretty anxious time. 50 reviews of McLean Hospital "You know what? All the feelings of worthlessness came flooding back into my head. I want you to know that despite the poor choices, the exhaustion and what you've seen as laziness, I have loved you through it. You can now share your poetry (or poetry you love) by using the hashtag #MightyPoets. Until I got out of all the physc stuff , non groups and started to directly talk or better said listen to those that suffer from BPD I really had no idea. I have beeen through 3 years of DBT therapy and figuring out who i am and how i came to have this horrible disorder. I had my breakdown in 2003 at 39 yrs old went from happy and singing to feeling like I was being watched and crawled under my desk at workscared too death to come out and feeling like a little girl. I feel helpless, powerless to get my feelings accross. DBT stories from people around the world recovering from BPD. She has told me when she gets this sense of impending doom in the past is when she ends up in the hospital, which she has made it over a year with out being hospitalized. Also, I was a VERY positive person just a few years agoI was even called a Pollyanna! There are many different borderline personality disorder symptoms or traits including: feeling empty inside. I am not really able to offer guidance, as I am just a peer with the BPD diagnosis, but as I've recommended to another reader, you may want to contact Amanda Smith of Hope for BPD at: (941) 704-4328. Something wasnt right, but you still lay down next to me every night. This website is produced by members of the Sanctuary Support Group. I'd use this (edit it of course) if I was getting the help I need. I'd at least come to an understanding of what it is, how it works, what it does before she did. Spot on insight!! Debbie, Hi Beauty thank you very much for your kind feedback. We are not mental health professionals nor clinicians. It can be hard to witness someone's pain, and one of the pitfalls for therapists is to lose faith in the person going through the therapy, particularly when building up one's own DBT skills. UPDATE: A video version of this letter, com, plete with narration and text, is now available for viewing and sharing by clicking, https://www.my-borderline-personality-disorder.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/12/healing-from-bpd-e1577900769964.jpg, An Open Letter From Those of Us With Borderline Personality Disorder. If you do not want that we track your visit to our site you can disable tracking in your browser here: We also use different external services like Google Webfonts, Google Maps, and external Video providers. I also hope that you engage in self-care to take care of YOU during this stressful time. There is HOPE for you and your loved one. You don't understand me. So for the next two months she drove an hour each way to attend IOP. It's sad that I would have to use our son as an instrument to get my wife in front of a mental health professional, but it is the only way I can see him being protected from the long term effects of this mental illness. I came across this link on tumblr while browsing and I felt compelled to respond from the perspective of the BPD's child. 4301 Wilson Blvd., Suite 300 You are a strong person for working so hard to heal yourself. I'm usually pretty good at keeping my head, and not fighting back, whenever she does this. I'm fortunate enough to have a man in my life who is willing to put up with my ups and downs, how mean I can be for no reason so many things. When I was scared, I ran away and hid. You know what, I wouldn't have been able to write it 6 years ago. Somewhere between 1.6% and 5.9% of adults in the US have BPD, a personality disorder that's characterized by difficulty regulating emotion. My friend is having a sense of impending doom. Everyday I sit with teenage girls in crisis, and oftentimes I think they struggling to find the words you expressed so eloquently in your letter. I know its because you had to. Thank you so much for your comment and for sharing your own progress. Can't take their word for anything. I have struggled with relationships. People with BPD may experience just a few or all of these common signs and symptoms: Extreme or unstable emotions. Its hard, and my life sucks.. My blog is aggis.wordpress.com, but its in norwgian, lol. That is what a fight with a loved one feels like, or how intensely they can feel love for a single person. You can also change some of your preferences. Thank you for taking the time to leave this kind comment, and more importantly, for the wonderful work you are doing to help hurting people. I'd probably try again if he asked me, but I know he won't. Seventy-five percent of those diagnosed with BPD are women in their child bearing age (Lamont, 2006). Refresh the page, check Medium 's. It's not your fault. There is no one in this area who practices DBT. I wish she would recognise her need to make changes with help. The one thing I would add is that people with BPD need to recognize that no matter the rationale for their actions, they do hurt people, and hurt people have a right to their feelings as much as people with BPD have a right to their own feelings. But for what it's worth you're brave for writing this letter, and i hope for the people who are genuinely affected by this condition, they are heard supported and loved as they definitely don't need anymore shit. Yes, I live in my fathers house, but we barely speak, and I harbor so my anger toward him that sometimes I cant talk to him because I dont know what awful words could come out of my mouth. The stigma. I am on the edge. I suspect that if she were to sit across from a psychologist she would be able to fool them, but I am about to test that. The most ironic thing is: I went to school to be a counselor. My wife tried to take her life 16 days ago. This is the hardest thing of all for me to overcome. Thank you, and may the knowledge you acquire now help you to build a life worth living from here and forward. This message is what he's been trying to tell me for the last two years and I've just never understood why he would stay with me when I have my BPD episodes, but this helps me understand. 2022 Mighty Proud Media, Inc. All Rights Reserved. This extreme, black or white thinking and experience of totally opposite desires is known as a dialectic. I really appreciate all of the kind, encouraging words you've offered here. Someone with BPD might feel fine one second and then really angry or upset the next. My name was stated here originally, but due to the fact that all of my personal rights to this story are irrelevant the moment I post this, I have decided not to give it. Part of that process is for the parents to submit to therapy as well. , Oh Debbie, once again, you have kept it real. I am very glad to hear about the understanding you're experiencing within your family. I want to know that humanity can be beautiful. Listening to your loved one and acknowledging their feelings is one of the best ways to help someone with BPD calm down. You can see glimpses and more and more of who that person really is over time, if you dont give up. The mind is very complex. I believe we could work at our enmeshment together and make this work. If you had told me 10 yrs ago I would be happily married and eventually become a mother I would have given you the finger and told you to shut the F up. I had promised not to disturb her, but a few minutes later I realized I'd left the book I was reading in the bedroom, so I lightly tapped on the door. It is possible that something that you said or did triggered us. Perhaps some don't even reach that point. I pray that she is able to find a place where you are now. Would you mind if I reposted it on my blog (beautyandtheborderline.wordpress.com)? I am borderline, but also bipolar, which I take medication for. i was wondering if you could answer something for me though. Every single time you embrace my stable days when I'm the peachiest version of me you ever get to experience. I got my diagnosis when i was 18. You are a source of admiration, thanks for your courage and generous words. This time she almost did it. A, The mind is very complex. I am wondering what to do to help her. It's hard not to appear defensive when she is asking for explanations as to why I've done things. I held on to you so tightly then, and I still do now because, to me, you are the answer, you are the only person in the world. They said that it was more important to show me how much they love me than to go on long vacations alone. I have spent a lot of money and resources to help her in every way, only to be treated like trash. What loved ones may not realize though . She has been diagnosed, but refuses to even acknowledge that half the time (more than half the time) and I have had to take a zero tolerance for any crap in order to protect my family. He is aware of his disorder and I saw him fought many times. I am a woman with BPD. NAMI The relationship is different, the experiences are different, and the harm caused is different. You never know thoughit could end up being really helpful to hear from others who are going through the very same things as you. You are likely to see this behavior from someone with BPD and unlikely to see it from someone with NPD. I read The Art of Asking by my favorite artist Amanda Palmer, and it was absolutely wonderful. The reason being, that it is common knowledge for those with mental illness to understand how damaging social stigma can be, but I believe it is just as damaging to read numerous success stories about people who have suffered themselves. Thanks for reminding me that there are people out there who can still sympathise x, I have BPD, i'm from Norway. I am doing 99% better now that I got proper treatment for the eating disorder. The mood swings experienced by people with BPD can lead to issues with impulsive behavior and can contribute to relationship problems. I don't know if I should or should not point out that she has an illness and thus a proclivity to feeling the way she does, without it being my fault. I am LOST! I admire all of you, everyone of you, that can speak out! I'm always fascinated and encouraged to see persons with BPD who accept the diagnosis and are embracing treatment. It can often produce stereotyping and be frightening and misleading. You have come a long way and thank you for helping the rest of us!!! Thank you for taking the time to leave such a kind comment. I hope to afford continuing to see my therapist. BPD: Why Do We Get Triggered By TV, Movies, and Books? I did drink, but it always leads me to dangerous places. Changes will take effect once you reload the page. Our struggle, particularly as we prepare for our first child, is that this grandparent usually rejects all diagnoses and has not been able to successfully initiate and maintain any treatment regime (medication or therapy). Groups are not for everyone. A Letter From a Woman with BPD I got an email from a woman with BPD. Learn how your comment data is processed. This is known as PTSD, and it happens to a lot of us, too.). I sent it to my mom, who after reading it, said she understands my condition and why I do the things I do a lot better, especially the parts about the fear of abandonment. One moment you might feel as though you love. Thank you for taking the time to share your story. You're absolutely right that small paragraph is all that any mother with BPD who has damaged her children not only should say but it's the only thing she has any right to say. Help your loved one through their BPD. I'm very grateful for his letter, Christine. In my experience, one of the most effective ways of doing this is to find someone who as gone through the DBT treatment to share some of their experiences with potential or new clients. It can be really difficult to know how to cope when someone has emotion dysregulation issues and is incredibly emotionally sensitive. Don't give up on YOU. BPD, Trauma, and WHY the f*#k did I just say that?! Sometimes I feel understanding. I had an outstanding relationship with her with much in common and few if any disagreements to the extent that I am totally convinced that she was 'the one' for me (I'm a 48 year old man that has been around the block enough to be a good judge of this) and am not entirely prepared to give up on her. I've had some, don't get me wrong, just nothing that's helped long-termand now that I *think* bpd hits the nail on the head, it just happens to be this mysterious, new labeland of course no one can see it. I am a Father to 4 amazing children, a full-time worker and a musician suffering with Acute Depression and Borderline Personality Disorder. However, looking back, all the signs were there, but I just didn't see them. I tried telling them what I KNEW I needed treatment wise, but because it wasn't available to me, they kept telling me I just didn't WANT to get better and wouldn't take the help offered even though I actually did go through all the groups offered, which didn't help because of the other issues I struggled with which they just said was BPDit wasn't. I would love it if you shared my letter with clients and posted it on the wall in your office. But at least we're acknowlodging it and it's *&^$%&$& hard! People with borderline personality disorder (BPD) struggle to understand how wives, husbands, friends, and other family members experience their intense reactions, mood swings, and risky behavior. An Open Letter to People Who Write About Borderline Personality Disorder | by Rivka Wolf | Invisible Illness | Jan, 2023 | Medium 500 Apologies, but something went wrong on our end. , You are a brave and kind man. Ask questions. I believe my daughter has BPD. Shrug. I tried to help her by pleading not to go back to the guy after he choked her (!!!) Its as if we havent outgrown that. I am going to send him this link and I hope he reads it and it helps him to understand that I'm not a monster but instead struggling with a disorder. There, youll also find thoughts and questions by our community. I would be pleased to sent it to you. When he is having his episodes he verbally attacks me. For some of us, we had childhoods during which, unfortunately, we had parents or caregivers who could quickly switch from loving and normal to abusive. before you all jump on me telling me i'm in denial don't want to get help etc i've done nothing but GET HELP for years. OMG. They actively seek to control the perception of BPD in the same exact way they try to control how they are perceived as individuals. Explore the different options for supporting our mission. Tell us how mental illness has affected your life. A certain song, sound, smell, or words can quickly fire off neurological connections that bring us back to a place where we didnt feel safe, and we might respond in the now with a similar reaction (think of military persons who fight in combat a simple backfiring of a car can send them into flashbacks. and "WE" your partners love you, even if today, this week, this month, this year, you hate "US"! she now cant be with me because what will people think if we are seen together? Thanks for giving others hope by being a partner who is interested in learning more about his girlfriend's condition, and please also be sure to use very good self-care and seek support for YOU, too. I would live and die alone. So here I sit feeling sorry for my self and a whole lot lost. Please be aware that this might heavily reduce the functionality and appearance of our site. Recovery happened through a commitment to DBT. I am aware there is a shift in the middle of this brief description of my experience from talking to people with mental illness, toward talking to those without it. Refresh. Thank you for writing this. So thank you. I don't see what that has to do with anything. Our brains literally disconnect, and our thoughts go somewhere else, as our brains are trying to protect us from additional emotional trauma. Please trust that, with professional help, and despite what you may have heard or come to believe, we CAN and DO get better. I am currently single, but hoping that someday she comes back to me and we can have the life together that i so know God chose for us Whatever your doing don't quit, don't run, fight, struggle.. you deserve to be loved. If there is a problem with our website, please contact us here, 2023 Sanctuary Support Group | Designed by, Debbie Corso had BPD and has recovered. and I guess I thought tough love would maybe get through to her, but it's been 3 and 1/2 years since I have seen or talked to her or my grandchildren. Unfortunately, a few years later, the societal stigma against mental illness reared its ugly head. A trigger is something that sets off in our minds a past traumatic event or causes us to have distressing thoughts. You carried on with our children, with your job, with our house and you dragged it all with you like Wonder Woman. Unskilled borderline sufferers can be a lot to handle and some BPD behaviors necessitate separation. Debbie, Hi Andrea you are very welcome. I shouldn't have apologised, and this time I won't. Debbiethank you, for having the courage to write and advise about BPD, that I knew nothing of until my daughter of 27 was diagnosed 7 months ago. Just be there for her in the end when she needs you. My wife, whom I believe has undiagnosed BPD, was hospitalized in February for SI. I got therapy, I asked for help and got it. My own experience with my BPD mother was one in which my father, siblings and I were often blamed for her erratic behavior and unstable feelings. Your boss is *probably* trying to be supportive and encouraging in whatever way she knows how, but only YOU know what you need in terms of support at any given time. Every single time you bring me back down when I'm fighting through a trembling and breathless panic attack that makes absolutely no sense to you. This is just another manifestation of BPD. 4. Click to enable/disable _ga - Google Analytics Cookie. Enough said. Thank you very much for your perspective. I want there to be love in the world. I made it though, and I now know that I have so much to offer to my future clients because of my own experience with mental illnesses. 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